Babbling

I have been watching nothing but romantic movies for the past several days. It's a sign, I swear. A sign for what? I'm not entirely sure. I just know that it's making me really want someone to curl up with. You know? I want to be able to have a special boy that I can just.. Call up and ask to come cuddle with me while we watch silly movies and talk about an array of topics ranging from your typical "What's new?" to more in depth topics such as "What if everything you know is a lie?", that would just be so fantastic. Sip on some tea, lights off.

I know I'm only seventeen, and I know that things that I'm wanting aren't really realistic at all for someone of my age. A girl can hope though, right? All girls do. Every girl has an unrealistic thing that she craves from time to time. My unrealistic hope is to find a mature, attractive boy that I can see on a fairly regular basis without feeling obligated to have a make out sesh. Sure, the occasional make out dealio is all fun and what not, but I don't want that to be the life root of the relationship. I've been there and done that, I don't want to go deal with it again. It's just not who I am.

I am not one of those girls who has low self esteem, and feels the need to throw herself out there in order to maintain a fun relationship. I have loads of self esteem, not quite enough to be a complete doucher, but certainly enough to keep me grounded. Boys who think that they can just guilt trip you into doing anything or force you to do anything or anything along those lines aren't worth the effort. It's not that I have high standards or anything, it's just I don't like being pestered about doing this or that or anything like that. I want to go at my own pace. I want to go at my own pace, and I feel that with today's standards I can't really do that.

Speaking of standards.. What the fuck is with double standards?!! Seriously, it's ridiculous. If boys were held to the same damn standards that girls were, so many of them would be total sluts. Where the hell do guys get off on being able to boss girls around? I know it's an age old dealio with the whole men being the boss or whatever. They have always been the head hanchos and what not. Yes, they've always had more or less the same intentions since the beginning of time. Puberty hits and the sex drive is on! Yeah, girls are pretty similar to that as well. Although some of us, or at least I do, control/disguise the urges and what not. How often, in person and not online, do girls get really pervy and demanding in the sexual sense? It's just yeah.. I don't know. So obnoxious, and it definitely kills whatever attraction I have/could have for that individual. Although there's been times where I can look past it with quite a bit of ease.

Anyways, I feel like this is more than enough. Oh and I like this movie.. It's really hilarious. I shall post all about it when it gets over!! It's called Table for Three. :]