Thoughts

I am spending yet another night watching love based movies while browsing blogs. Why do I lack a life? Why don't I make an effort to befriend people nearby? Honestly.. I can't even be bothered to make an effort to please anyone. True, I get lonely and bored and I should probably do something about it, but I've found that I'm almost always the person who goes out of their way to start a friendship or maintain a friendship. I've just gotten tired of it, and I want the other person to make the first move. That's understandable, right? I think it makes sense, but that's why I think it. :p

Moving on. I'm still craving a lover. I mean, I don't know. Calling them a lover sounds like I'm just trying to find someone to have casual sex with or something, and that's just not acceptable. I want someone to cuddle with. I want someone that I can curl up with and watch chick flicks with and stuff. Is it so much to ask for someone like that? Someone who would be fine with not being all sexual and weird? Frick. Frick frick frick. It's only been like.. five months? Since my last boyfriend. That's not long at all. I'm just scared that the five months might turn into a year and a half and then I'll do something out of being desperate. Although isn't wanting to have a boyfriend this badly just as bad as being desperate enough to make a mistake? It is, isn't it? Flip a kangaroo. I just can't think straight. It's like everyone around me is finding someone to be lovely dovey with except for me. Well, me and my best guy friend. And we're both wanting to have a lover, ha ha.

You know that taste you get in your mouth after not brushing your teeth for a while? Yeah I don't really like that. By a while, I mean like a few hours after you eat something. I don't know, ha ha. I just know it grosses me out like no other!!

I can hardly keep my thoughts going.. I so thought I had more. This movie is distracting me!! It's called Bicentennial Man, and it's a good movie. I believe that you all should watch it. :]