That's all there is to it. I'm constantly in need of affection, even if that affection comes from a source miles away. Luckily I'm not much of a fan of physical things (aside from cuddling/hugs/the occasional kiss) because if I was, I would be in a life of hell. However a lot of people aren't as emotionally driven as I am thus creating difficult situations.
It's a rare occasion that I find myself being completely happy in a relationship. The reason behind this is because so many people feel the need to make everything physical, and I'm just not like that. The thing is, I respect myself way too much and a lot of sexual acts terrify me. Physically I move slowly in a relationship, I invest all my emotions into the relationship before I even consider pouring endless amounts of physical satisfaction into one. This is probably why I get hurt easily, and is also probably why a lot of my relationships end. It's not like I get dumped often, in fact it's the other way around.
I get so fed up with people trying to pressure me into doing things to them/for them/with them. It gets to the point that I can't stand it anymore, it starts to get disrespectful. I just want someone to be able to deal with my pace.. It's not like I'm a horrible person. I understand having physical needs, and that's why I'm open to the idea of being in an open relationship as long as I never heard anything at all about the other person/people.
Anyways.. Being a hopeless romantic is a pain in the toosh. I form crushes easily, but I end those crushes just as easily if there's a reason. I get my feelings hurt way too often, and I pretty much feed off of those sweet little things that people say to me when they don't necessarily mean them to the extent that I take it. One day I'll find myself in an amazing relationship, I'm sure of it. I mean.. There's someone out there for everyone, right? You just have to weed out all of the wrong ones before you find the right one. :]
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